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Ive moved on so have you, i just wish what we had for almost a year was special to you like it was me
can’t believe i’ve wasted all this time on someone like you. all the awful things you’ve done covers the nice memories we had together, your just a self centred little boy who only thinks about yourself, the sad thing is i believed all your stupid lies,
fuck boys, fuck everything! i didnt think one person could make me feel like i was nothing to them,
going to drug myself up to see if it helps me get to sleep in less pain than im already in. maybe im being dramatic saying i feel like someones kicking me in my arms, legs, back, shoulders, neck, but you dont know what if feels like until you can feel the pain yourself. because i handle it a lot better than many people could. i just wish my mum didnt have to go to work and leave me, now your gone anyway.
set up on a date, boys giving me their number to talk, why dont i have any interest of moving on when i know i should, someone who will treat me right and wouldnt leave when things get hard, someone who says ‘i love you’ and means it, everyone knows how much he likes me but most of all makes me happy and wouldnt hurt me on purpose. because you’ve just made me look a fool for ever liking someone like you ☹
i’m only young but i thought we had something special, obviously we dont, i know you liked me but old ways always come back, your a lads lads and enjoy being one, what boy would want a relationship at this age anyway? id be nice if someone was afraid to lose me
I hate cuddling people, its only you who’s arms i want around me, everythings amazing right now but it would be perfect if we was together, but i know thats not going to happen, i couldnt trust you, whats sad. if you was hurt or bothered about us you’d be making the effort to text me but your not, so im not. do you listen to your head or your heart? mum said ive got to think his not the person ill marry or have children with, i thought he changed for me, maybe i am a mug for liking him but when were together he makes me happy, but his probs moved on, not a care in the world about me, i heard someone say ‘they tried having sex in a ally but she couldnt get her leg high enough’ it makes me feel like im worth nothing to him, i still want to believe its not all true but, it adds up, it makes me feel so worthless and ugly. a picture yesterday of a girl he was with saying ‘after a rough threesome’ little things like that make me upset, woke laura up just to get in bed with her and cry. i am fine i just wish you’d realise what you had
